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My husbands family is in town visiting us, and his brother is staying with us, and I’m pretty sure he’s on cloud nine just hanging out with his brother.  I’m ok with being the 3rd wheel, he’s so happy right now.

I’m tired but don’t particularly want to sleep yet. Had a long fucked up day at work, but it was made partially better by getting the news that my sister had a baby boy this morning. Everyone I told at work is shocked that they decided not to find out the sex until he was born. Baby Noah has a shit ton of hair and looks nothing like his older brother did when he was born. Im excited for my sister and brother in law, but this makes me hard core home sick and also makes me miss the booga boy a lot.

Ive been so sick since sunday, I had to get a cat scan and all that nonsense.  They put an IV in me and pumped me full of so much fluid it was kind of ridiculous, started me off with the typical bag of saline water crap, pumped in some anti-nausea and then made me drink a huge cup of barium.  For the record, Barium really isnt as bad as everyone says, it is.  I kinda creeped out my nurse and doctors the way I just sort of downed the crap like it was kool aid.  I sat forever and ever waiting for the stupid cat scan, and then wept like a baby once they had me in the room.  In my defense Ive never had anything but x-rays and Ive never been to the ER by myself, with my husband not knowing where I was. 
  Cat scans kinda suck by the way.  They made me drink more barium, then had to put something called “contrast” small word for “chemical that is about to make you think there is something seriously wrong with you”.  You get warm all over, like obscenely grossly warm and it really just sits down by your bladder so I was convinced for a few seconds that Id gone and wet myself.  It also makes your mouth taste metallic and my nose even got a little crazy, everything smelled like pennies for the rest of sunday.  But then you have to listen to this creepy voice tell you how to breathe while you listen to this crazy whirring noise holding your arms above your head like a ballerina.  The contrast stuff was really what threw me over the crying ledge, I was already crying a little, but it hurt going into my iv and then I felt weird and out of place.  so then I got to sit forever getting more paranoid by the second I happened to need to pee for the millionth time and a nurse saw me and went “oh your last name is Stanley right? you’re fine Ive got your discharge papers and a prescription.” 
   I felt really shitty but got to take myself home, after picking up my medicine, got home and took it easy took the demon powder and have felt like a squeezed out tube of tooth paste since.  Dan was nice enough to stay home with me yesterday I was in a lot of pain and weak so he made me food and forced me to drink water (something Im really bad at doing). 
  I feel a lot better today, not 100% but getting there I still feel weak and run down but Im not sleepy and Im not in pain anymore.  Moral of the story, keep hydrated and eat more, and take fiber seriously. 

But I dont understand a trend I’ve noticed recently. I see a lot of girls going ape shit over gay guys. Not just ape shit but they seem obsessed with gay male relationships, and then discuss which heterosexual characters they’d like to see get it on, like its some weird fetish for them. I have nothing against gay relationships or bisexual relations, I’m just not seeing why its a big deal. iIpartially see it as a way people are depleating the value of the relationship in media. I just dont believe we should get any more excited over one kind of couple over another kind, love is love dont get your panties in a twist over two people kissing. Its going to be sweet and romantic no matter what.